We all have triggers, things that trigger all our emotions, our smiles, our laughter, things that make us happy, but thanks to our messed up brains we also have them bad triggers! Things that trigger our anger, our upsets and like me our anxiety.
One minute everything can be perfect! Things finally going your way! Great you feel on top of the world then something so tiny can make you explode! Send your anxiety rocketing through the roof to the point you cant leave the house, you shut your curtains, shut out the world, scream, shout, cry anything that you think will help! When really its your anxiety telling you thats whats right!
I can sit now and laugh and think why the hell am i getting so upset and angry over something so small, yet something that shouldn't even have to cause such problems yet my anxiety is telling me the complete opposite.
Im really struggling today and all I want to do is run away and hide from the world! I have had the most perfect weekend with my amazing girl and within a matter of hours of her leaving my head has shartered! I just want to rewind back to coming home from work to a nice hot bath, a glass of wine and food and cuddles watching a film with Sammii on the sofa instead of this horrible dark feeling eating away at me! I know as soon as she finishes work and calls me i'll feel so much better but not knowing when that will be or how long i have to wait to feel calm again is only making things worse
Until then
E ♥
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