Family? Pfft What's That??!!

What is family!? People who love you, care for you, be there for you??!!

No my family are nasty, horrible, 2 faced pain in the arses!!

Sick of crying all the time & being put down! If it isn't about my weight, it's about my debt! 

& people wonder why i spend my life in my room!!!

I have had enough!!!

Today I Am Thankful ♡

My Beautiful Fiancé & I ❤️

My Body is My Journal & My Tattoo's are My Story ♥

Alot of people always ask about my tattoos, the meanings, what & where they are so i thought id blog about them! I have 18 in total! I think ive posted them in order but i will write about each one!

Tattoo #1 i got on my 18th birthday is my 3 brothers initials "Jamie, Caleb & Trey" my dad has been warned not to have anymore haha!

 

3 days later i got this "Without you i wouldnt be me" instead of the typical "mum" & "dad" tattoos i got this! But also to represent my friends & family who have helped me become who i am today!

 

I have had this read by someone who can read arabic & it is correct but one i would like covered up! A quote from the film "Moulin Rouge" one of my all time faves!! "The greatest thing you"ll ever learn is just to love & be loved in return"

 

My friend Kee convinced me at a house party to get a "Shh" tattoo to match her with a treble clef as the "s" to represent her passion for music!

 

The first part if my Alice in Wonderland piece is a key that me & my beaut of a friend have matching by a very talentes artist who i will only let finish my whole thigh piece in the future.

Each butterfly represents someone i lost but the pink is for a beautiful girl called Kim i lost to cancer & the blue for amazing young man called dave who supported MCFC. So the colours represent them both. Also another tattoo i would like altered but not covered.

 

"Sometimes the dreams that come trye are the dreams we never knew we had" my first tattoo after coming out! Selfexplanatory  really!

 

 

The second part to my Alice tattoo! "Painting the roses red" my favorite and also biggest tattoo! 

 

Me, my mum & brother all got this done for her birthday! Representa bob marleys 3 little birds! "Dont worry about a thing because every little thing is gonna be alryt"

This is "Steve & Yolly" my 2 little stickmen in love! So imperfect they are perfect in love! I didnt pay for these & will most likely have these covered one day but i love them!

"For a thousand times over" this tattoo was for Dave! Id relive every moment a thousand times over that i spent with him to have him back.

I have my "Pinky Promise" that me & a friend i dontspeak to anymore unfortunatly have matching which ironically was to promise never to fall out.

My heart on my ring finger i got the same day as the quote on my shoulder. 

I got this for my 21st! "Never grow up" was because i refuse to be an adult no matter how old i get & growing up Peter Pan will always be my all time favourite story! Recently i learnt the true meaning behind it which upset me a little haha

Me & My Girl have matching tattoos that i designed! "You will forever be my always" 2 linked hearts & our anniversary (which is wrong eeek)

I call my girl my snowflake & she has a tiara for me because im her princess.

I got my girlfriends initials tattood on me whilst in greece as a present to her from my holiday because she was upset about me being away and i wanted to give her a happy memory of our holiday.

My latest tattoo is the start of my cinderella leg piece that i cant wait to add to and have amazing ideas for how i want it coloured in!

 

Hopefully it wont be too long before im updating this blog with new pics of new ink! But for now there you go!

Goodnight

 ♥

Feel the Fear & do it Anyway ♥

We all have that voice in our head, the Angel & the Devil! "Do i buy this new dress" "Do i eat the last cookie" "Do i go out tonight with the girls". Or how about the voice that some of us can control but still sits there at the back of your mind "You look horrible in them clothes" "They are talking about you behind your back" "Nobody actually cares about what your saying". But have you ever thought about the people with that voice they CAN'T control, the one that controls their lives, puts their lives at danger? The voice that forces them to stay locked up behind closes doors, starve themselves, scar their skin & even take their own lives!!

 

Physical disabilities are recognised & seen in day to day life but not many people seem to grasp that a high % of everyday people you see in the street, at work, at home, your friends or family suffer with a mental disability! From anxiety to depression to clinically recognised disorders that put people at risk every minute of the day there is a high % that someone very close to you suffers if not out loud then defiantly in silence.

 

Now i do have to disclose i am in noway professionally trained, nor am i a doctor, a nurse, psychiatrist or anything like that! I do work in mental health & suffer personally but my views are of my own & not linked to any professional body or organisation! I can give advice & try to help, to talk to or just be there but i cant give medical diagnostics or tell you what to do!

 

Ok so thats the boring stuff covered i guess!

Every day, situations present themselves that require you to communicate with confidence. You may have to speak up, ask for help, or simply engage in small talk, which can be hard for many people. Some situations may even be uncomfortable, like talking to a boss or a person you don’t get a long with. This makes communicating with confidence a challenge. This is why i find blogging so easy! In a way im talking to 1000's of people around the world but because  its not direct i dont feel under pressure, im not waiting for acceptance, a response or tbf anyone to even read this, im just speaking the rubbish on my mind in hope i can help just one of you out there!

 

If there is anyone out there who doea feel like they can talk to me then please by all means contact me!

 

I can be found on fb under 

Erin Adelaide Vachre 

 

Or you can email me at

Eriin_x@live.co.uk

 

But for now i will leave my post at that & try & sleep!

Take Care my lovelies

♥ 

 

A Promise not so hard to keep ♥

Why do I enjoy something so much

 yet find it hard to find the time to keep up with it?

 

Blogging is my escape, my wonderland, a place I can talk shit, say what I want & not have to sit & worry about a persons response! & yet I keep disappearing!  I use to love coming on here every day, posting something new, checking my stats & seeing who in the world actually reads my crap!

I'm going to start focusing on mental health! Not just mine but in general, I will try find motivational posts, quote pics and post funny stuff to help lift moods. Whether anyone actually reads it is a different thing, but if what I write can help one person find the courage to speak up & seak help then I know my posts have a purpose!

 

IMO going to write a post about a girl who is such an inspiration to not just me but to 1000's of people around the world. She created a video & within hours became "Facebook Famous". She has created a page for people who suffer to talk, rant, make friends or for people who are just members that like to read the posts.

obviously I need her consent to do the post but I'm sure she wont mind

 

anyway keep your eyes peeled

& for wherever you are in the world

good morning good day & goodnight

♥